Why Me

Why Me

There was this song I love by the group “Naughty by Nature” and the lyrics went like this.

Some get a little and some get none 
Some catch a bad one and some leave the job half done 
I was one who never had and always mad 
Never knew my dad, mother fuck the fag 
Where anywhere I did pick up, flipped the clip up 
Too many stick-ups, 'cause niggas had the trigger hic-ups 
I couldn't get a job, nappy hair was not allowed 
My mother couldn't afford us all, she had to throw me out 
I walked the strip, which is a clip, who wanna hit? 
They got 'em quick, I had to eat, this money's good as spent 
I threw in graves, I wasn't paid enough 
I kept 'em long 'cause I couldn't afford a haircut 
I got laughed at, I got chumped, I got dissed 
I got upset, I got a tech in the banana clip 
Was down to throw the led to any tellin' crackhead 
I'm still livin' broke, so a lot of good it would've did 
Or done, if not for bad luck, I would have none 
Why did I have to live a life of such a bad one 
Why when I was a kid and played out was a sad one 
And always wanted to live like just a fat one 

The chorus had these words,

Everything's gonna be alright (alright) 
Everything's gonna be alright (alright) 
Everything's gonna be alright now (alright) 
Everything's gonna be alright (alright) 

The whole song gave meaning to the life most of us live, but Trech spoke mostly of a life in the ghetto. A life that I grew up experiencing through the people I associated with. These same people live in this neighborhood and abroad today. It’s a stuggle living this life, trying to balance between doing whats right and doing whats wrong. Selling drugs is a lucrative job in which you can make a lot of money. But two things come into prospective, the clients you gain, never stay the same, and at times, depending on what you are selling, they die off. Another aspect is there is no retirement and, or someone else may want to move in on your business and utilize the gun to move you out of the way. This makes the mortuary a good business because they know people are dying to get in there to keep their business thriving.

With all this in mind we still have to deal with poverty in our neighborhoods and the governmental officials, we put in office, not being concerned about the welfare of us. They say all these glamorous speeches and make it seem like they really care, but in the end, we still suffer. I for one struggle with some of the decisions I made in life and have to deal with the outcomes. My money being funny and not being able to enjoy the finer things in life. I sometimes ask the question, “why me”.

In scripture I have found one person who took this question on a whole different perspective. When God looked upon the sins of the Earth, he needed a leader to come and show the world how to live a life we were created to live. One Anointed Individual stood and said, I’ll go. This Person left the luxury of Heaven to come and dwell amongst us.

Now, let’s understand something first, Adam started all of this off by being disobedient. The reaction in which he made towards the fruit is now dictating how we all react to the fruits of the world. I had a conversation with an artist this past week and talked about the Willie Lynch letter. He has a rhyme that’s cold and it is about the letter, in his letter he speaks about economics and the destruction the letter enforces. Now check this out, the letter makes everyone believe that the colors he is speaking of in this letter, black and white, represent a skin color. But you see in economy in order to be poor, in the black, money is not being made. To be white means that you are making money. This letter creates confusion if we allow our natural instincts to kick in and react to the letter. If we actually look at the letter it has economic value, which means the colors black and white are talking about the economic value of the people, not the color of their skin. Slaves, when the letter was written were either indentured or forced into slavery. So to be a slave meant you work for someone who had the financial backing to support your labor. The nationality of the people spanned from European to African. We all see the effect of slavery from the descendants of Africa. This can also become an additional argument because history shows that the people with dark skin were already here in the manifest of early Spanish explorers, which were called “Moors”. But to stay on point, all of this is involved with the Willie Lynch letter when it comes to confusion. If the people are confused then control can be manifested. So the outcome of this letter continues to keep confusion amongst the masses, while the rich get richer and the poor stay poor.

There is another point to the white and black color, white means to be enlightened, and black means to be the unknown, or in the negative since, a nigga. When God created the Earth it began in the black, Genesis 1:1 In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth. 2 Now the earth was formless and empty, darkness was over the surface of the deep, and the Spirit of God was hovering over the waters. 3 And God said, "Let there be light," and there was light. 4 God saw that the light was good, and he separated the light from the darkness. 5 God called the light "day," and the darkness he called "night." And there was evening, and there was morning--the first day. From the beginning of time God, Yahweh, El Shaddai, Allah, Jehovah, whatever name we call our Creator, created the Earth in an “enlightened form”. So we are to maintain an enlightened state of mind as we live in the dark world. The Earth was created by The Almighty and through Adam the world is what it is today, dysfunctional.

2 Corinthians 4:6 For God, who said, "Let light shine out of darkness," made his light shine in our hearts to give us the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Christ.

1 John 1: 5 This is the message we have heard from him and declare to you: God is light; in him there is no darkness at all. 6 If we claim to have fellowship with him yet walk in the darkness, we lie and do not live by the truth. 7 But if we walk in the light, as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus, his Son, purifies us from all sin.

Jesus is the Anointed One who left the luxuries of Heaven and came down to Enlighten us. His direction is so Anointed that people flocked to him just to witness His Existence. If we look at today, we don’t want to see the face of Christ because it’s disguised with a racial aspect. We fight over the color of his skin, if he was a Jew or not, if he is God or not. But what about taking into consideration Jesus Christ. When I run into people that knew me when I was younger, especially women, I get greeted with open arms. This is not to say I was a player but to say I was remember for being the shy and kind kid in the hood. I wasn’t always that way but for the most part a lot of people in my past remember me that way. What is in our heart should reflect our outward appearance. I grew up in the Baptist church atmosphere and the biblical principles were instilled in me early. Believe it or not, it has helped me grow through my transitioning’s in life. When it comes to Jesus Christ, I’ve always known of the existence of Christ, I just didn’t understand it. I got caught up in all the hoopla, just like everyone else. When life got so pathetic were I wanted to give up, the existence of Christ began to become clearer. I began to say “why me” and Christ said, “why not you”? How else will I be able to appreciate the blessings of God if I don’t go through something and appreciate how He brought me out of it. It becomes a disciplinary factor, my faith has to become stronger so I won’t veer away from the path God is leading me down. I begin to see things clearer if my faith remains in tune with what God wants me to do.

Psalms 104:31 May the glory of the LORD endure forever; may the LORD rejoice in his works

Psalms 119:68 You are good, and what you do is good; teach me your decrees.

Jeremiah 31:35 This is what the LORD says, he who appoints the sun to shine by day, who decrees the moon and stars to shine by night, who stirs up the sea so that its waves roar-- the LORD Almighty is his name:

We all have to go through something and that is only because of what we are doing. Let’s face the facts and be real with self, I try to every day, don’t mean I’m successful at doing this but I try. I have to look at me and say, hey bruh, it’s you that is the reason why you going through this. I look back upon how I got to this situation and realize what I did and didn’t do. Majority of the time, I was not following God, left him were I wouldn’t hear him, and continued doing it my way. But God made a promise to us, “He will never leave us nor forsake us”. I have to understand that in order for me to prosper in life I have to be Christ like. Then my directions in life will always be clear.

Exodus 10: The Plague of Darkness

21 Then the LORD said to Moses, "Stretch out your hand toward the sky so that darkness will spread over Egypt--darkness that can be felt." 22 So Moses stretched out his hand toward the sky, and total darkness covered all Egypt for three days. 23 No one could see anyone else or leave his place for three days. Yet all the Israelites had light in the places where they lived.

Job 26:10 He marks out the horizon on the face of the waters for a boundary between light and darkness.

I wanna explain this one a little in detail. The Old Testament had a lot of codes written to detour the ones who were out to kill the prophets of that time. Waters is defined in meaning as a large group of people so this gives reference to us. When we correct ourselves in the presence of God this becomes a reflection on our individual faces.

19 "What is the way to the abode of light? And where does darkness reside?

·         Job 28:3 Man puts an end to the darkness; he searches the farthest recesses for ore in the blackest darkness.

·         Psalms 139:11 If I say, "Surely the darkness will hide me and the light become night around me," 12 even the darkness will not be dark to you; the night will shine like the day, for darkness is as light to you.

This is the example we receive on a daily basis, once the sun goes down its light still reflects off the moon and/or the stars. As with the moon, the only time we don’t see the reflection is when it is either eclipsed by the earth or the sun. The moon is eclipsed every lunar month because it goes through phases, or cycles, as it travels around this rotating Earth. Just as this happens with the moon we go through phases in our life. We have to remember that the light will always shine even in our darkest moments, if we allow it.